Every night I feel the angels cry...

I don't know, what's wrong with me. Maybe it's the autnum or maybe it's the 26th of november, that's coming so quickly, but I'm so sad and blue. I feel like crying but I can't, because I'm too scared, to show I'm weak. Not that crying means that you're weak, but It's not like me to cry infront of other people. Please, don't think that I'm depressed or something but there's just so many emotions inside of that I haven't let out and I have a bad feeling, that they're going to burst out any minute. Ohh fuck. I wanna scream, but I can't, I wanna run, but I can't. Life is a flower and I'm the lawnmower, that cut's it down to the ground.